Busy werkin...workin, wreken...blah..you know...

So I have been somewhat busy doing some pet portraits, and I have finally been hit by some creative juices that I have to narrow down what I am working on now so that I can get these ideas out into clay and other forms of expression. It has been hard trying to get my creative juices flowing as I have started working a "real" job to get some money flow coming in too due to me and my boyfriend trying to buy a home.  Which in of itself as anyone knows who has bought a house is a very stressful, and at times enraging task to take on. Though throwing thousands of dollars away on renting a house seems so asinine to us that the very thought of doing it for another year is weighing heavy on my shoulders, and I find myself getting nauseous at the thought of literally throwing money down the toilet. Time to really become the foundation that is apart of being an adult and bringing some value to my worldly possessions and equity. (you know what I mean) So that has occupied a lot of my time thus far in the past two months.


My meager efforts trying to become an artist, or what I think is a "working artist" has lead me to this point. Sort of a crossroads on how to move on in so many directions yet keep some sort of semblance of an over all goal in mind. Which is hard considering I honestly cant picture where that will lead me, I can imagine where I want it to be, and how grand of work I want to create, but it doesn't mean I will get to what I picture in my head. I mean honestly...do we ever reach that image we see in front of us? Its always sort of skewed isnt it? Like how you pictured yourself to be as an adult when you were like 10 or 11, yet doing it now as an actual adult you sort of project these jaded perceptions of it and its not ever as pretty as you imagined it when you were at that younger tender and self forgiving age.  I dont always think I am as talented or skilled as a lot of the truly talented people I went to art school with, or even people I admire. The world wide web has opened so many doors for me to peer into and see what is out there and it has made life more intimidating for me, but still eager to become apart of it somehow. In lieu of all that....I am moving on this sojourn and hopefully bring some better work to light, and maybe...just maybe be proud of where my hands and head are taking me. I may not be worthy of it now, or praise for that matter, but taking the leap and effort to do it I know is still better than wishing I had.

Here is some recent pet portrait work for you to admire.....hopefully.